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21, Oregonian, college student studying nothing close to poetry.

Note me if you'd like to talk, because I like to talk.

None of my work may be used without my permission. I'm pretty lenient on what it can be used for however, so just be sure to contact me first.


the only thing I've learned from my mistakes
is how to ask forgiveness.

the sun throwing itself over the hills


weak and drunk and discussing poetry in the sun.

I haven't decided yet if this whole damned place
is made with evil
or maybe it's just me

that sun and the hills

all around.

my old friend chain smokes and clears his throat

he recites his truth between the hills.

the crimson sun of his cigarette

the golden sun of my rum.

in the shade

a pair of small children come down the trail and he hides the pack
of cigarettes between his legs.


who are you trying to save?

somewhere I know my mistakes are crying and coming together.

putting on human clothes and coming
over the hills
down the trail

out of the earth.
their hands outstretched

like a child wanting

the sun in my throat.
I saw her piercing blue seas one hungover monday morning
and I knew then which ocean I wanted to drown in first.

all of my rats have tangled their tails
around my liver, my lungs

each other.

and I've tried and failed to burn them out
poison them
dissolve them
tear off their tails.

an endless monarchy of rats.

I want to swim in your ocean, be tugged and tickled
by the tides.

watch the sun rise over the water

watch the sun set over the water

drift me as far away as you can

your blue seas.

so far from syringes and smoke
slumping over and in

dirty couches
filthy chairs.

their tails flailing in your waves.

these bottles and blotter paper surround me with their
continual dying.

when can I see you again?

at the end of my life

waiting on my doorstep your shore in a thin film of snow.
when I am reincarnated I hope to come back as myself.

do not bury me

do not place a cigarette or something else in my hand when I am gone
and say that I wanted this.

do not give me wings like the other dragonflies and angels

put me back in this body that coughs and spits
and loves as recklessly as it writes.

do not give me dog-legs or dog-love.

give me back my lungs my liver my heart

as blackened as they may be.

leave me in a tub of ice and do not close my eyes.

I will close my gaping mouth myself in time, close myself up
climb from the ice and wrap a towel around my waist.

my old life soaking the earth, my new life dripping in.
When you took me from my petal
and cupped my frailty
between your hands,
it was like my chrysalis was back
and I am changing again.

It was just as warm as I
paintbrushed your palms
with my monarch wings.
You opened up your smallest fingers,
and I saw five hundred facets
of your child's eye.

I saw every angle of your innocence,
I saw the sheen on your corneas
when you flitted those threadbare wings.
I saw the shoebox with corners
like a prism.

And your call was so loud
when you carried me home.
And I witnessed
your five hundred pins,
and five hundred books.

With five hundred fingers you
pinched me out,
and held me to brutal surgery.

I can feel my death like pollen
on a candy bar.

I only ask you start
with my insides.

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LucyDahliaRyder Featured By Owner 1 day ago
Hey!:) I mentioned you in my latest journal! You should go check it out!:)
dearjuly Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015
Happy belated birthday :hug:
FallingAsleepTonight Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2015   Writer
Belated thank you!
brokengod--veins Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday! :huggle:
Vandal-Bleu Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
:la::dummy:HapPy HaPpY BirThDaYY!!:cake::party::iconbummiesplz:
remanth Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! *throws confetti* :party::cake::dance:
StarlightComet Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
*aggressively tries to favorite everything in your gallery*
FallingAsleepTonight Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014   Writer
Hahahahaha, wonderful
metamage Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh, dude, it's gonna take a while going through your stuff. Oh, DARN!
relativi-t Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Student Writer
Your work is really just breathtaking. I wish I could pull off such potent minimalism.
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